TODAY

SO TODAY I had a pretty good day today. My dad bought some of this fizzy asian soda candy in melon, orange, and Ramune flavors, so I've been snacking on that all day.
We went to Lowe's today to get things done.
My mom and I picked out a Meyer lemon tree and a navel orange tree, which I'm going to plant in the backyard tomorrow.
We also got a new grill, and after spending three hours to put it together, we finally got it finished!!!
Yay grills!

I can't wait for summer
And when high school is over
Messing with this is kind of interesting.
Going to a barbeque tomorrow with some family friends.
Why doesn't it feel like summer yet?

CURSE YOU EL NINO!!!!

Finished my drawing!

Here you go Ellyn.

So I did a grid system, from 2cm squares to half an inch. Because of the weird conversion, parts were kind of skewed, so it wasn't really too helpful. I didn't use the grid system often, mainly to get the size and shape of stuff correct. I didn't get any of the faces right, or hands, John's especially. This took me last night and the better part of a day. I'll probably upload more soon.

Drawing

So I've actually been drawing quite a bit, not just doodles (although there are plenty of those...) but some legit full-scale drawings of stuff.

Right now I'm working on re-drawing this awesome beatles picture I've found on the interbutts.

I'll probably scan it in and some other drawings I've made and post them here or facebook.

I really enjoy drawing, it's very calming, and an amazing way to spend a weekend. It's too bad I'm going to college fo music, 'cause I would go to the Portland Art Institute in a heartbeat.

I just saw "It's Complicated" last night, the one with Meryl Streep(?) and the Baldwin from 30 Rock. It certainly lived up to it's name, and was pretty entertaining.

I'm planning on going to PAX this september, which is the biggest gaming convention in North America. Imagine, 100,00 people all playing tabletop, console, and computer games. It will be amazing.

Hey!

It's been so long. I guess I haven't done this in a while, I even accidentally posted an empty post on accident.

So now I'm a junior, going on senior. I can't wait to get out of high school, it's kind of frustrated. It seems sometimes that everybody's worried about other things than actual school.

I've got my post-high school plan semi-mapped out.

1) Get a job (applying to Bed Bath and Beyond right now)
2)Go to a community college while gaining money from said job.
3) Take the required courses that PSU freshman must take.
4) Do music stuff at the community college.
5) Finish that stuff.
6) Get to PSU.
7) Room with somebody downtown.
8)Have amazing shenanigans downtown
9)Start an awesome folk/electro duo, playing drums.
10)Take PSU courses in Music Performance and Jazz Studies
11)Start a badass Jazz/Metal band playing guitar.
12)Get a cat.
13)Graduate PSU.
14)Get a job performing.
15)Get a job instructing schools.

So

Right now sucks. I don't even want to do this anymore. I'd like to think that there's people out there who care about something, I hope so, but I guess not? I guess the world's just fallen off of a cliff, starting to roll down, maybe getting dirty...

Really?

It's like everything's going awesome, then life delivers one swift kick in the balls for good measure. It's funny how one simple thing in life, that really has nothing to do with you and might've affected you a year ago can make it suck now.

So not over it.

From a deleted paragraph of an assignment.

The most important thing in my life right now is music. It brings me to a serene place where I can dream about the things I can be and the things I can do. I don’t know what I want to do with my life yet, but right now I’m frustrated by the lack of something in my life, and sometimes I feel music is the only escape to some kind of future I can be proud of, some future where I can make light for other people, whether it be with music, or science. I often am left with so many thoughts, yet I am unable to express them properly through words, with that, music

The Reeling.

I recently obtained a copy of Passion Pit's new CD, "Manners" (go get it now). The album's fourth track, "The Reeling" left me reeling.


We dug these holes
We crawled into
Now they're my home
Now here I cannot feel the wind
Can't feel the rain or cold
And I believe in gentle harmony
How I loath all this obscenity!
Is this the way my life has got to be?
Have I a single opportunity?
Look at me
Oh, look at me
Is this the way I'll always be?
Oh no-Oh no
And now I dream that somebody
Will swiftly come and kidnap me
Oh no-Oh no
And everyday I lie awake
And pray to God today's the day
Oh no-Oh no
But here I am oh here I am
Oh when will someone understand?
Oh no-Oh no
And all at once I feel this
Oh how it clings to me
It reels and calls me towards some
Confounding destiny
And I can feel the madness inch by inch
The more I run the more I am convinced
I've colored all these like the
Branche's twist
Just like we settle in the frothy mist


I got chills, and they're multiplyin'

Useless.

I've never felt more useless than how I do right now. There are these people who are doing these amazing things, helping people, every day. It just seems that everything I do is insignificant compared to others. I don't see the point in doing something for myself really anymore. It's not like I'm depressed or anything, I just feel like I should be doing something more, right now. Anyone want to help?

Thinking thoughts.

Last night I couldn't go to sleep.

It was like a million thoughts were racing through my head at a million miles an hour. Dwelling on each one no longer than a second or two.

Every thought revolved around one person.